It's kind of amazing that I can write now as my 1st baby who is (13 mos old) is having his afternoon nap and my 2nd baby (almost 2 mos old) is sleeping peacefully on my chest while i babywear him with my ktan. (btw, i really recommend baby ktan it help moms continue to do things while carrying their babies!..)
Well, I am excited to be having just minutes of break.. I consider my "me time"and "rest" during the hours that my kids are asleep.. you see.. eversince I became a mom of 2 (yes 2, because when I just had 1 baby my time and day was still a breeze hehe) not that i'm complaining but let me continue.. as soon as I became a mom of 2 babies it feels that I now live in a fast paced world and getting things done could be so time consuming or exhausting.. I always hate to sound like I am complaining or throwing not so good words to describe the feeling (specially with what weve been through) but I have to stay as real as possible to whats truly happening in reality.
Yes, its true I have to admit that having babies under 2 is a no joke exhaustion... As soon as you wake up in the morning its like you press the fast farword button and just press play as soon as your little ones sleep because thats when you can really take it slow but its only for an hr or 2... I am still very thankful though that we are here in manila where having a yaya or a help is possible because now that my eldest has his own yaya meaning she is the one who is constantly watching over him while I get busy with my newborn (gives him a bath, feed him, walk him outside for exercise, plays with him, cleans and sterilizes his feeding bottles, washes and folds his clothes and she even cleans our room!) whew, I know you would say how can it still be exhausted when you have a maid!?!? hahaha
believe it or not it still is... because while the nanny is busy with my eldest I am busy with the youngest.. and during the times when I let her rest and my 2 awake babies are with me the world seems 4 x faster!!! my toddler , Knox is a handful and still needs to be guided with his every step because he is just beginning to walk,,,he gets and throws almost all the things that catch his interest and is truly 1 active little boy while on the other hand, my almost 2 month old Noah is persistent that when awake, he doesnt want to be left at either on bed or on his swing... so he consistently wants to be carried and swayed...
being the kind of mom who always tries to find for solution.. I tried my best to look for remedies and found that a baby hammock or DUYAN in tagalog is really helpful so I went to the market and bought his very own.. while it is true that its helpful he still wants to be carried most of the time...
My life in a fast paced world with my 2 kids make me the tirdest but also the happiest... The lord made a miracle when i first got pregnant with knox and he suprised me with a new miracle the second time he made me a mom with noah... as I said to my husband during one of our random conversations, " I wouldnt have it any other way"... "its perfect the way it is." perfect because my kids are the lords reminder for me that he answers prayer and delivers miracle.. :) Despite the exhaustion and despite how many times I whispered and prayed for them to have "longer naps" so I can have "longer rests" only to see that 1 baby (or 2) wakes up already hehehe I am happy... In fact this is the happiest that Ive ever been in my life and i know I could not be any happier !! or maybe in 3 or 4 yrs when God permits that I will get pregnant with a baby girl I could still be more happy hehehe
But for now I am super happy.. tired? yes! drained? oh yes! but blessed? VERY BLESSED!!!
I always pray to God that he would always give me strength both emotionally and physically so I could take care of my two littles well :)
