may 11 2014
ive been meaning to write an update about our last ivf cycle but i wasnt very strong enough to say that it failed again. I just want to say here that after having a failed ivf for the second time again we had my blood tested for immune system and elevated killer cells and based on the results we found out that I have elevated killer cells that needs another set of treatments of LIT. (meaning transferring the white blood cells of peng to me once every 2 weeks and we will be needing 3 sessions of that.
Oh well. I know these are God's plans to me but of course I need to accept it.
and today is a special day for all mothers and i am still not included. It pains me to still be infertile up to this very day but I am praying to God leaving the rest to him.
words are not enough to describe this tremendous amount of frustration, envy, pain and depression and I hope I could still be able to walk through this so called "life" with strength and faith to God.
my dreams are still not reality and I will forever try to reach my dream until God says no to me in whatever kind of instrument he will use.
:( I cannot express how bad i feel to be worthless as a woman and im so sad
